The Half Fallen

I have seen a few stars when I gazed upon the heavens

And the moon has not shined upon me since that day

This is what it feels like

To bleed

To hate

To love

To break

The sky has no favor amongst men

The world is but a breath

And the path you choose is inevitable

To pierce your soul

To create a barrier from realization

To breathe real air but not realize you're suffocating

Your chest collapses in the space you're bound to

There is no escape

You have fallen

And fallen even more

You beg forgiveness for something you're not sure you have fault

"The tides will not turn", is something you know

Yet you tell yourself it will always be better

Your tears will fall in vain

But I will not cry

At least allow me this, oh cruel world

Have you not taken enough?

The sky bleeds red as I see it in my eyes

The crowd smiles and spits upon your face

They do not know what you think or feel

They may know similar

But never the same

A rogue

A colt

A dream yet to be seen for it is alone in queue

I can taste the scent of every breath she has made

And that alone is enough to take me to this place

She is not with me yet she is always in my thoughts

I plead to forget but my heart won’t allow it

The silence never seems to make itself useful

Instead, it crowds your thoughts of nostalgia and grief of loss

No, she is not dead

I am.

The only light I get is but a brief sense of peace

There is no peace

There is no rest

I will carve the lights of the cosmos to blend with my pain

I can see no other way

I must stay alive

Even if it means the death of my name and my castle

Cursed be the land

For it has no use to me

Cursed be the skies for it has forsaken me

And cursed be the creature that calls themselves "man"

For they are but less

I am less

My heart has not broken

It has been stabbed by love

Still the greatest weapon there is

A low blow to the soul's groins

FFFFFFFFF ack!

Tweeeeet!

And Baaaaa!

I am okay

The silence will once again be my friend

The life I had before is now mine again

Thank you for the love

Thank you for the kisses

The hugs

The promises

Thank you world for your filth

I am sad to say I cannot repay you

I do not have it in me

I have outgrown your ways

5:57Am 11 March 2011