EXURGO

Is this it?
Are we beyond repair?
Are we falling to our doom?
Is there no chance for change?
Change that's for the benefit of all.
The ground, it shakes.
And the wind, it screams.
And the swine run around
Scavenge the land that's breaking apart.

Are we not sick yet?
Are we not sick?
Are we not pushed back
With our backs to the wall?

Let us push back.
This cannot be the end.
We are many but we can be one.
And this war shall be won.

1:36pm 11/13/2013 UTC

Screaming, Silent, Chaos

The idea of rest being rest in someone eludes me. Though I think I've been there before, it seems foreign to my path and ideas. Maybe because I reject the thought of being chained or shackled for too long that being tamed is torture. Or it's the fear of being tamed and left with nothing but the hope of having a home and a purpose. Life plays with you too much that it either suffocates you or sets you free enough to falter. Even your ideals of how the world should be turns into a play of words and incoherence.

Chaos, one thing I found my peace in in most cases. Now it is a blur, a background of noise traveling up my spine and crawling through my bones. A discomfort knowing I am alone. A though that I thought I would be fine with the rest of my life. Crowded, cold, and uncertain of where I stand... There is only the breath I have before I lay my head down and find my self in the realm of dream. Yes, I am drunk. The alcohol spurred out my suppressed thoughts and chased me home. Maybe I am not alone. My thoughts will forever chase me home.

As You Breathe

Upon barriers I see
Through distance I feel
In silence I am lost
In darkness, your smile shines

Lead this soul to your heart
Rest this heart on your hands
Set it on fire if you must
It is yours to do your will

Just keep smiling
Smile and set me free to be yours
Take my offer and lead me shackle me to your heart
Let me be your refuge

Let me make you smile

4:43AM 20 June 2012

Light

In the place of the lowest
My form through deceit and falling
I falter and claim dying sanctuary
Light, light my way
Lead me to the heart of thee
Claim my soul
Call my entire being yours
Lead me to rest
The world is antagonizing
Scathing and dead
An apathetic existence
Be thy solace

Blah! Blah! Blah!

Where did she come from?
I can think of ways to get to you
And none of them I am capable of right now
Heart is pounding
Stop it! You stupid organ!
I hate you!
You've caused me nothing but pain

But who is she?
How does she make me smile?
How have I found myself in this position again
Why do you make me think of sunsets or sunrise?
Why are they the same to me now?
Oh, what to do? What to do?

Why is it when I think of home
You're the first face I see?
This isn't a poem
No, not even close
This is just me blabbering
This is stupid, good night!

Treading Through Men

Whispers of deceit
They intend to kill
Yet always fall short
Instead, they leave knives
Pierced and bleeding we walk
Death will not follow
That would be too kind
No gentle breeze to chill the sweat
It will take it's toll
Tired and weary
Chained to follow your path
Still bleeding
And almost empty
When words were thought to be painless
It is a double-edged sword named 'words'
Woe the lashing
And scramble the visions left
There is no end
Your words I will carry
Yet I will not hint you my breath...

Then Comes Spring

We've been at it long enough

We've been testing the waters for too long

I'm taking the plunge.

If it's too hot than I burn

And if it's too cold, I will freeze

I do not mind.

If the water is too shallow than I can walk away

And if it's too deep, than I shall drown

I still do not mind.

For if everything is just right, I will care less of leaving

I will spend all my days in your warmth

And all my days soaked in you.

Totality

I am not just a face in the crowd

And neither are you

We don't need the attention

So, find your self in my warm embrace

Shielded from the world that changes face

I'll be your wall

Your comfort in the storm

The steel of your sword

And the air to your flame

Scent (A love poem)

When all comes to pass

And will turns to loss

There will be no end to love

And all love for you

Whether flesh and bones or flesh alone

It's you I hold and me you own

I will not have you gone from my arms

Not even death can take our love

The passion will still burn

And still I will feel your touch

Your cold and lying body will yet feel skin upon

And if your scent wears off not

I will still not be content

I will not see it so

And I'm never letting go

Horizon

You have eyes in front of your head for a reason

So use it, you dim wit!

Go forth and meet your horizon

fight for your right to move forward

You are not shackled in chains

There are wars worth fighting for

Your love's worth fighting for

The heart that bleeds

The flesh that pierces your soul

The empty yearning of more

The demon that you should cleanse

To be whole

So take a breath

And meet your horizon